So here I am already struggling with what would be my first blog post.  Too much pressure on myself I think..why did I have to tell the whole world that I was starting a blog? I posted it on Facebook and now there are a hundred likes and fifty comments wishing me well.  Did I think it was going to be easy? Yes in my confident (highly over-confident) state of mind I did think just that.  Firstly thinking I could blog, after all how hard could it get? I got my doctorate recently and that gave me ability to write extempore and reflect my thoughts to the whole world I guess.  Well, that’s what I thought for sure and so much for over-confidence!

Secondly, I have all this time on my hands now.  I have been an empty nester since August.  For twenty years I have been in the “mom of two boys” mode and life seems to have passed me by and remains a blur.  I forgot my life before the kids came along.  I went from changing diapers to baseball practices to soccer practices and sometimes both together, and I have no idea how I did that.  Dropping one kid off and then picking the other or vice-versa and it was a good day if I didn’t forget to pick a kid up.  So I was ecstatic when they both decided to do lacrosse and I couldn’t believe my luck!!  Their whole time on earth had been spent on doing things poles apart as the younger one did not want to do the same things as his older brother.  They both played different sports, played different instruments and even had different temperaments.  Heck apart from their genes, there was not much in common between the two boys.  So imagine my surprise when they decided to play lacrosse and I welcomed what seemed like a major step in their relationship.  That happiness lasted a short while when I realized one played junior varsity and other played varsity which meant I was on the field for 6 hours sometimes 50 miles away from home.  Just my luck!

So when the younger one went to college, I went from being a busy mom who was always cooking, playing driver, counselor, homework helper and even disciplinarian to almost nothing.  The cooking reduced immensely and there was no one to drive around and communication became limited to texts and Facetime.  Well don’t get me wrong, my whole life did not revolve around my kids and after they left for college, my work still consumed a huge part of my day.  I continue to run and hike and fill my time doing projects, but there is still a vacuum and time that seems to linger around.  So in an attempt to fill up my time I decided to write and here I am blogging in hopes that I will spend my time productively 🙂